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Since 24/08/06 ................... Person/People here right now!

Omg the app draw something is creating some sensation or what! But people really never fail to impress me.
Some girlfriend of mine tried to draw a
Joker that really looked more like a ghost. (welcome wini!)
For your viewing pleasure:

Getting married in 2017,
Me!

Been a while!
March holidays were swift!
I basically got enough rest during the week. I realized only on Sunday that I was left with a report untouched and I couldnt do it till I went back to work as I left my notes at work.
So anyways started my Monday(yesterday) as early as 7.30 and reached school at 9 to finish my report in an hour. I hope it was a good one.

Realized that the earlier I wake up the better I will feel during the day. As my class starts at 1. Waking up at 10am and leaving home at 11.30 to reach by 12.30 is really annoying I end up yawning alot during lessons. Not good. So yeah latest I should wake up is 9. And as soon as I am done I ll leave.

Tuesday today was fine. Class is going smooth so far.
Just new documentation that is breathing too hard on all our necks.

Met up with Wini! We were supposed to have a date with dearest Uthaya but he got held up. So wini and I had a fun crazy time at Ikea!

Revamping my room with my own hard earned money soon! So excited.

Photos!

Saw shit loads of mirrors I could die for. Really need a good long mirror for make up and dressing up. Annoying rp of mine took the one we used to share. But I need it more la!

Oh well!
I hope you guys can see the photos. I am blogging via phone. So yeh!

Thanks for e crazy day wini!

Missing my cousins and their children.

Missing missing many many.

Getting married in 2017,
Me!
;)

Had a good Monday today. A meaningful Monday actually. Was an early day at work and having stayed home on Sunday seriously helped.
More readiness for work next day!
Fantastic.

So day was great. Had meetings after meetings. Two only actually but enough to last me for the day.
Made Little Red Riding hood for art. Was so cute. I shall snap a pic and upload it!

I am on week 9! And that leaves me with another week only. Then March holidays and then Camp during the holidays I am so sure it will zoom past me ; the holidays.

Going to Malaysia on the 10 and kinda excited.
Let's seeeee!

BFF arrives tomorrow. Gotta see her!
:)

And and and......

I shall continue later!!

Getting married in 2017,
Me!

I think I'm suffering from amnesia. I can't even recall any of passwords for my email, blog, etc etc.

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I finally decided that here's where I belong!
And its been WAYYYYY tooooo long I say!

So anyways, this post has been in my head for far too long now and even as I type I am not taking a moment to rethink or type cause I think I've been waiting for this chance to let it all out.

I would love to name my post title as : 'Is he one of them?'

So yeh, coming from the minority group of race in Singapore, I feel as if we have probably brought drama to a whole new level.
I used to ask my good friend Juen(A Chineseeeeeee girl, lol), to equate Indians.
And she often would tell me, 'Walan, so easy Indians = Drama', well well!
And not forgetting the fact that she surrounded herself with me and all my other friends for a good 4-5 years she understood us very well.

So coming back, I would like to give a heads up to everyone who reads this, guys or girls, Indians or Not.
But what the hell do some Indian guys think when they have a GF, I really wonder.

Like seriously.
This is what love means to them (From the typical Indian guy's point of view)
:

I am going go for the nicest and/or prettiest girl I can lay my eyes on, and it would be better if she doesn't have any bad habits because I have enough to split it on both our sheets.

I am going to control her so much because I need to show her that I can be her father/mother/brother/sister all at one time. But truth being I don't even know how to be a man.

And by controlling, I am going to make sure that she knows that she is not allowed to wear sleeveless unless with me (Because the slightest reveal of her arm makes him insecure, you stupid insecured bastard).

And she can't wear make up without my permission (BECAUSE MAKE UP MAKES HER LOOK PRETTIER AND I CAN'T HAVE PRETTY GIRLS AS MY GF BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH NEXT TO HER).

She can't have any friends from the opposite sex because I'm so scared she might just fall in love with everyone because I'm such a bastard I can only imagine what kind of girl I deserve(Because you have probably tried and hit on your female friends).

She can't hug any more guys including her brothers/cousins/good friends because the thought of someone else touching her kills me inside and I might just die with the pain but I can hug any girls because my fucking heart is clean and green and has always been (SCREW YOU!).

She needs to be home by a curfew set by YOU because YOU ACTUALLY CARE, like WTF, you think you do a better job than the girls parents? And if you think you do a better job than her parents then it defines the type of girl you're with. But if she's already too good and you limit her to your curfews then, the issue doesn't lie with her or her parents but you.
Like seriously, you just cant accept the fact that she can have fun without you, thats all!!

She needs to sms/call me every damned 30 mins/ an hour if she's out with her family/friends, because I need to know if she's in danger(more like you need to know if she's having too much of fun without you), buttttttt!!! If I'm out with my family/friends, she can't disturb me because as guys we have to have our time(fuck you, because if your gf is in real danger and you're far away from her you would ask her to deal with it by her parents/friends' help) and girls don't.

She needs to tell the whole world via Facebook that she's in a relationship, because essentially I just wana warn everyone she's attached through her and I'm not man enough to tell guys who try and hit on her myself and also not that I'm proud of her but because I honestly don't know how to treat a girl but I'm gona try my level best and pretend I do AND listing her as my gf is one step to pretending.

She can't go club without me because when she was given birth , her mum and dad wrote an oath that their daughter will not club with anyone but her boyfriend.
But truth being, you just can't accept that and be mature, that, anyone can go to the club and dance and go home because you have been the kinda guy who would approach girls and try and ask them for a drink or dance and you're scared that your gf is going to be in the same situation, and also you're scared that she might cheat you(even if she will never) because you have cheated on her.

She can't drink alcohol because she doesn't know her limits and even if she does you're not keen because you know the wreck or chaos you have created when you get drunk.(This one also I can accept la to a certain extent.)

She needs to surrender her phone to you each time you meet her so that you can read all her smses and see her dialled/received calls because you wanna know whats happening in her life atleast through this manner, but no asshole, you're just scared that she might meet more beautiful people in her life and leave you cause you've been such a dirtbag all these while.

She needs to prioritise you before her own parents but you're always gona put up that drama that its your mum/family/brothers before her, but when things go downhill you always only go to her because you know that she's probably the truest thing to you besides your parents.

She can't miss any calls of yours because that means that SHE'S CHEATING ON YOU, and not that she really got busy. But its okay if you miss all her damn calls while you're doing your own shit cause she's supposed to understand.

And should you be less educated then you try and demotivate her because you're so afraid of what the society might say about when you don't even believe in yourself, let alone believe in your girlfriend.

And if you were to have a problem with her, she should not in anyways go on about in her plans with her family or friends, because she's supposed to be all sad and so its not RIGHT to be happy.
But its okay if I do it, because I'm a man, I can't show my real emotions to my friends, so while I go out and have fun she can't but actually I'm really sad we fight.
I am so sad that I really can't help but smile and laugh with my friends, but still I'm sad that I have a problem.
MIDDLE FINGER TO THAT TOO!!!!

And if the girl wants to put an end to all these, then I'm gona tie her down by just scaring her la, like not threatening know, just scaring only. Like so much of difference between scaring her and threatening her. (=.=)
But I'm gona threaten her to do something to myself cause I got no balls or words to help express how much I love her.
And if that doesn't work, then I'm going to threaten to tell her mum or dad about how close I've been with her, cause we're Indians and so if I talk about our physical closeness then she has no choice but to stay with me. And it does not matter if she's staying with me because of the threat la, but what matters is I can't have no gf, I got an image to keep up with what, I'm Tom Cruise what.
But actually I love her la.
Like wow, I really do.

And if I lay my hands on her when she makes me angry, she's not supposed to tell this to anyone la because I have a solid reason for doing so(but truth being her brothers/father might just kill you for doing so) and she shouldn't cast the bad light on me, because she did something wrong so I had to lay my hands on her.
And also, laying hands is such a gentleman behaviour so I'm gona keep it up with her.
But after that I'm gona tell her that I did that cause I cared too much about her.
Because you hurt someone physically when you love them the most.
Thats why child abusers gets arrested, because the jail is the house of love what.

And also, every night when she's gona be out she better make sure she remembers she's attached, but if I'm out with my guys its okay for me to hit on other girls because what she doesn't know doesnt hurt. But should she know about it then I'm gona convince(lie) to her that I would never do such a thing to her.

And should I miss my ex girlfriend, I'm gona meet her and talk to discreetly behind my girlfriend's back because if I'm gona be direct about it, it will hurt her.
But doing all these without her knowledge won't. (STUPID ASS! I think that I would respect a man should he tell me openly that he's gona be talking to his ex more that someone who does this shit.)
But say if she talks to her ex bf, thats it, I'M GONA KILL HER FIRST then kill him.
BECAUSE I LOVE HER! =.=

And I'm gona use all my knowledge on vulgarities when she fights with me and she's not allowed to retaliate with any because I'm a man, and I'm the one with a pride and she shouldn't behave such.
But truth is bastard, you don't have much in your language command to express what you're feeling, and should the girl use vulgarities on you, its only going to be words that best describes you. And deep down you know that every vulgarity that comes from her is probably gona be what you are, and you cannot accept it.

And honestly, this is nothing personal la, but I figured that all fucking Indian boys, need to grow up, I'm so sick and tired of hearing and seeing so many Indian girls who let these BOYS/WUSSES do this to them.
And silly Indian girls who let these boys do it, like come on already, if he does this now, then he's gona do worse in future. And if you want such a future then suit yourself, but if you don't then do something about it.

I'm not saying it simply.
Lets just say, been there, done that.
But its all good now, like we learn from our mistakes.
Right?

Because eventually I think we all will find someone who truly loves and be possessive about us in the right manners and never fail to express their love to us.
And maybe just maybe I have ...............but yeah!

To the rest, please be mindful is all I'm saying.

And should you girls feel as if your boyfriends falls in any one of the points mentioned above, then danger danger,because you're hitting rock bottom ,and its gona be hard coming out of that pit trust me.
Do it soon and do it neat would be my advise.

And I've been dying to have this post up for the longest time, so Indian Boys reading it don't take it personally, unless of course you're one of them, then I'm not sorry about it.
But I'm very sure many other Indian Men who read this would laugh knowing that I made perfect sense.



To end, Is he one of them?
If he is, then live with it, or live better without it.

Love love!

I wanna go clubbing this Friday night.
And so I pray and hope that my brothers decide to bring me! :)


Okay so.......
Was thinking about the different people I've met in my lives and how talented some really are.
And how some are really God-gifted like the MAGIC MAN in my life.
Like although we arent close or anything.
This guy is really blessed with some special powers.

And to trigger your memories, if you have been reading my blog since forever, here's my initial post about him!
I clearly remember how I was 16 when I first met him.

Ok the following paragraphs in blue would be my post about him! It was written in 2006 ah! So pardon my language and sentence structure and what not!

"Yeah speaking of which, I must so totally blog about someone so great!

So i saw him first when I was 11. But I didnt remember it. Yeah so it was 26 dec 2005.
I was over at my cousin-sis's house along with my 2 of my other cousin-sisters and my cousin-sis-in-law. Yeah so all 5 of us were chilling out and talking about random things. When my eldest sis , the one who's house we were in started telling us about her friend and her husband also started telling us how remarkably great he is.
So we got excited as my sis went on telling us how he even tells her past right on her face and up to what animal she'll soon see and what it'll be doing or what colour it will be in.
I was amazed that such a person exist yeah, so along with other sisters we told our eldest one to call him down. She thought it was a good idea too, and yeah she warned us that he may not come down today cause he has many people to attend to. Keeping our fingers crossed she called .
And she said, "I've got 4 girls waiting to see you...come over lah!"
AND HE SAID OK, he was currently seeing another person in marsiling then, so he said he'll cab over.

So we waited , and he came. He came, said hi and all to my sis and her husband as they were sec sch mates for long they are tight. So he went to kitchen, washed his legs saw us, near the dinning area and he turned immediately to me and said, "I ve seen you somewhere."
I felt so too lah, then my sis said it must be during her house warming.
Yeah then he settled down and looked at me again and said, " why you wanna be so stubborn? u can listen to your mum and life will be better"
And whoaaa, like he slapped me right then with those words. He just said it ok.
So he asked who wanted to see me first, and we agreed on the eldest to the youngest.
So I was with my cousin sisters who were 23 and 16 and cousin-sis-in-law who was 22.
So I was more than glad to be last, my 16 yr old cousin was born in Jan so yeah older.
And he asked my sis for her name and birth date and then it started.
Something real and magical.
The irony, but 100% true.
I'll continue this story tmr. Too much of facts.
Overload- "

Part 2 :
"(If you have no idea what Im talking, then read the previous post first yeh?)
The one who can tell you everything based on your name and bdae ? Yeah Muni Anne.
Yeah so, he was first seeing my sis. So he started telling her things, not asking her but telling her that at this particular age you did it and this happened and he confirms with her if it did happen or didnt.
And I remember the feeling I had within me looking at my sis nodding to all his says.
It was scary, the feeling's like, " damn, everything is out".
I even remember there was one thing he asked her," Your bf has india link right?"
I'm like okayyyy, I didnt even know she had one. So she along with the other elder sis laughed and said , 'yeah, he's from India.'
It was about an hour for him to tell her all that she should know, I'm not gona go into details cause its her life.
But yeh, for me I'l tell most of the things.
So while he was seeing for my sis, her bro and my bro then turns up at the house and im like shit lah, cause if he's gona say things my bro doesnt know then Im dead.
I was hoping he wouldnt.

Afterwhich it was my cousin sis-in-law's turn hers took an hour too, it got scarier by the minute. He started asking her if she had a grandma in her house who loves her alot(as in compared to her other family members), asked her if there was once a god photo which fell from the wall!!!
Yes, and I was thinking how, just how he could even tell her about her family members when he has never met her before!
God's gift.Yeah.
Next was my cousin's turn the one who was the same age as me.
She is the most silent one of us all . BUT when Muni anne started telling her things and asking her if it was true we were shocked! She did have a bubbly side to her yeah.
He told her to take part in the coming thaipusam(2006) and walk behind her father as she would get alot of blessings.He told her this on 26/12/05 so yeah, my cousin did take part this year.

Yeah while he was seeing her, my brother was with my cousin bro at the hall preparing for Liverpool match.
Yeah, and my eldest sis's husband(DIE-HARD FAN OF POOL) then turns to our direction and asks," dei Muni, today who will win?"
And he replied saying, " Liverpool, 2-0."
We were like whoaaa, alright we'll see how it goes.
Muni anne only saw my cousin sis for about 25 mins and then we all took a break.
And the reason was, they wantd a break before the finale!
Yeah, since I was the last one , they said it was gona be an interesting one.

And yeah, my turn. At 11.15 pm. I was really scared . Even my bro keep glancing back from the hall to see if it was started. And he asked for my full name and d.o.b and started writing things on the paper.
My turn!!!!
He wrote something, looked up at not me but my eldest sis and asked her, "16 years old can go club ah now?"
IM LIKE DIE DIE DIE. My brother turns and stares at me my cousin bro looks at me with his mouth open, my sisters infront widen their eyes.
I couldnt manage a sound.
And my eldest sis says," I dont know la, maybe can"
Then he turns to me and asks, " you went right?"
I decided to lie, I couldnt stand the pressure alright!
So I said, "No..noo...."
Then he said wait ah, and he went on calculating , and then said, " Ya la, you went twice"
OMGGGGG.
I did, in my entire life, twice . Honestly twice!
So he said, tell me the truth so I can go on telling you more.
No shit, I didnt want anymore already!

And he told me all kinda things. Untill this point my tears flowed and my sis suggested I see him alone in the room.
Yeah so he asked me if it was true I wanted to skip one paper for O levels!
I did! Along with Juen and Angela, we thought of not going for Geog, but we did in the end.
It was so damn true! Everything he said.
He asked me many personal questions too, things I never told anybody.
He assured me though. Told me to be prepared for my O's results as I'll do well for one subject only and chances are I'll pass all subjects.
And yes I have seven credits, ace-ing my Humanities.
I then couldnt take it, poured my guts out. Yeah. He told me how I have problems communicating with my mum. How I had friends who........

And then he told me to close my eyes, think of a friend who'll never expose me in trouble despite being in trouble togther. I thought, one face came to my mind and at the moment Muni anne says, " yes, that person is your true friend."
Astonishing but true. You know who? :)

I always loved Gaga's daddy car as it was a 7 seater. Always told myself I have to drive that.
And Muni told me, " You want to drive a 7-seater car right??"
Im like OKAYYY. He knows lahh! HOWWW?
Went on asking if I have ideas to migrate to Australia.
I did.I did.
Told me that where ever I go black follows me, should it be my clothes or shoes.He says its good .
Cause anyone who borns on a certain date, as for mine 26, 2+6=8.
Those adding up to 8, can never avoid black.
17 is another eg.
He told me, soon one of my friends will ask me to go msia with them.
Thats dumb right! I was thinking who would wana ask me to go msia wih them!
Yes and my friend did, my pri sch friend shoba just 1 week later.
GOODNESS.
He told me I'll see a house, with a horse infront of the house two of its leg up in the air and the other apparently on the ground. Should I see that I have to call him immediately. Something bad yeah, but I haven seen it. Thats good! I dun wanna scare myself.

He said many many things, told me to specifically pray to certain deities.
Shocked me with what I have done before.
Everybody else were allowed to take down whatever Muni anne said, except me, he said it was because mine's facing the bad time and so he doesnt want me to take down these things.
So he consoled me, told me to retake my O's no matter the results.
(at this point I haven taken my results)
I felt much better talking to him. When I came outta the room it was 12 midnight. Yeah.
45 mins of talking to him
And yes, pool match was over with pool win 2-0!
I SWEAR THIS IS TRUE.

He's awesome yeah. He' frigging famous at woodlands,yishun,Jurong!
Yeah.Since then I started contacting him.
After that day I changed myself yes for the better. Even he told me he sees some changes in me.
Over the months we met up frequently.He came over to my house to see for my mum, dad,bro and me again! We celebrated his bdae at my crib! Surprise one! That was great.
Yeah, so he's awesome.Really.I haven told everything he told me cause I cant, but yeah he actually predicted Tsunami before it occurred.
This year he predicted another thing, I would have told you guys already personally that is.
I can't write it down. Its a worldwide issue.
And yeah, he'll always tell me, "Soon you will forget me.... you gona be someone great, after that where can rmb me?You will be in Aus I in Singapore..."
I'll always laugh when he says it everytime we talk over the phone, but I can never forget a person like him.

Yeah thats alot, but its 100% true."


Ok so yeah, that was what I wrote about him. And sometimes I still remember each prediction he has made for me, my family, my friends and how it has all happened and I feel happy that I knew someone like him.
He made my life more special in some way.

Anywaysssss.
I'm feeling rather sleepy, its 4 am!
I've been up doing my reports.
Now I'm gona sleep.
Too tired!!
So good night ya'll.

I feel funny now.
I should be flying to Australia end of this year.
If anyone wants to fly with me let me knowwww.

Did I mention how I'm looking for suitors already?
Yes I am.
But I'm not gona be in a rship for the next few years.
I'm reinforcing and reminding myself.
So shut up everyone else.

BYE .

And come 27 MAY, its party for 1 month for me!
I really need to unwind.
I've got one whole month for that, so friends,lovies, please date me.

I miss Pravin but I'm not gona tell that idiot, and so if he reads it here then good!
:)

And to you, you know who you are, you're missed. :)

How adorable is my brotheR! Lol.


Life's like taking a turn at downstreet for a while.
So I need a breather and I'm doing all that I can for that!
I really need to get away!

Mum was in A and E earlier, like Thursday evening.
Had a terrible fall while mopping and landed on her head.
Bro and Dad brought her to hospital, and I rushed down after work, and out she came with a cast after 2 hours of waiting.
Heir-line Fracture. At this age. Yeah. Sucks.

To add on to all that headache, had to see my Dad get stress over his brothers and some other saga there. And I just get so broken seeing my dad so down.
I hate it infact.
But like he was actually spilling his guts out to me, and if not for the fact that I knew I had to listen and be there for him, I would have cried listening to all his worries.

My dad's such an awesome man. I am so proud of him. :)

So following that heart-aching evening, I reached home at 10 pm only to hear more shizzzz.
Screw all that thou.

The usual caller, called and made me laugh and forget everything as much as he didnt know what I went through that day.
But point was, I was happier after the call.

You do know that when I keep really quiet on the line while your talking(which is rare, cause half the time your not talking but singing=.=) means that I'm all ears and all that you say is going right to the brain and heart right?
So thank you sweetheart. :)

Premalove is super pissed with me for not getting back to her at all.
Lol! :)
But I'm making it up babyyyy!!

Missing my 448 lovies alot! The gems especially.
Need to see them on Sat!! Sunday's my rainbow's 30th day ceremony!!

I don't know if my dearest Tnesh is seeing me any soon. But I hope you do. :(

I'm getting really sleepy.
So I'm gna go now.
But my last two words in summary : Terrible Thursday.

Love love.
Kiss kiss.
:)

I can't believe my weekend just went off like that.
And all I did was stay home.
Like Friday was a stay home public holiday with the cousins, my awesome possom Seanpaul cousin stricftly ordered us to be home. :(

SO yes, but it was fun, we went Jurong point in the evening and did a bit of shopping.
My handsome brother bought me a top!
Thanks bro!! :)

And after that headed home, chilled a bit and eventually found myself so sian, all I wanted to do was sleep.
Woke up as early as 7 ish this morning as I was gona go temple, and Jurong to Sembawang is indeed a long way.
Reached temple at like 10 and saw the same old familiar faces.
Speaking of whom , Lakesh, is one amazing guy I've known after Lily.
I really appreciate the fact I know these guys despite the way of how I even know them.
Lets not go there.
But then again, let me just go there for a while.
I'm so pissed mad at you.
And I asked myself why did I even think you could be in my future?
What did you show me that I even considered?
Seriously, if I was to let the whole world know about your shit, like how you think I don't know you are, I am sure you would have to hide.
But then again, that's what sets us apart. I wouldnt.
You don't just say you love someone and because you can't have them you make sure everyone around you can't too.
But if thats what you want, then so be it. It will be given.
Since when have I ever denied you of anything within my capabilities.

But hear this once and for the last time : I AM NEVER COMING BACK!
I promise you.

And on a lighter note I decided to come up with of how I wish my boyfriend would or should be?
Lol.
But see its all my imagination, it may sound illogical,stupid, impossible, but HELLO I said its my wish! Hahaha.

First and foremost, I hope and pray and wish that my future BF knows where I'm truly coming from.
Like my family background, the way I was brought up, ruled over, controlled and everything.
And honestly takes the tact to respect my up bringing and me.
He doesn't need to be so good : and good here doesnt mean telling me 'I don't drink,smoke,have tatoos and only pray', but eventually you do all that oppositely?
But I want someone who's balanced.
Knows his work, and knows his game.

Like someone who wouldnt put leisure infront of work too often?
Someone who doesnt get drunk every damn day and ends up missing work?
Someone who doesnt smoke too much and gets his internal organs destroyed.
Someone who loves himself and eventually someone who respects his material body and not intoxicate it much?
Like it comes to the point he should maybe share my view : All that's good or bad should be done in moderation.

And neither do I want someone who DOESNT drink at all but smokes enough to kill him.
Or someone who DOESN'T at all smokes but drinks enough to be the only customer required at a bar.
I don't need extremes, I don't.
I want someone who balance it all up and still remain fun!?

But coming back, he should really bear in my mind of my family, and our culture and not for a second let my BROTHERS topmost, parents and my cousins even doubt him of his responsibility.
Like say, he shouldn't be well known for being a drunk so much so my brothers give me the red signal?
Or even be so famous among girls for the wrong reasons and give my sisters a room to watch out for me?
He shouldnt be anything like that?
And he should know how my cousins are more than cousins and too dear to me that HE should blend in perfectly with them?
Like I would hope he would initiate meet-ups with my brothers and hang out with them.
Or even with my other cousins and we would all hang out together?
Seriously, he must be well liked by my family.

And then comes to the friends part.
He should of course know of my girlfriends and guys and you know be able to click with them all the time?
Cause the similarities between my friends and I are we 're friendly?So from them it shouldnt' be an issue.
But then I hope then even after he enters my life I don't have to change the way I am to them in anyways, which I did previously?

He too should not for a second change the way he is towards his friends upon being my boyfriend?
And I will be more than understanding should he have bestfriends of the opposite sex.
I've been that friend to many of my guy friends I should know how I wouldnt want to lose a friend because he's attached?

See I wanna know him for a few good years and with each year I hope we both make positive changes to each other and be happy and so happy that we really are contented?

I wanna be able to hang out with him at a bar should he watch soccer with his guys as I love watching soccer?
And should I want to go home midway, he just needs to ensure that I get home safely, and he doesnt need to leave with me?
And moreover, should I bring him to my home as my boyfriend I hope he ensures,assures my DAD to take good care of me. For my DAD means a whole deal to me and vice-versa.
Like he should know how to carry himself and know my dad would be judging him and he should not give any reasons for my dad to even have second thoughts?
Of course I want to be able to share with my dad about him freely?

Like he should know my dad doesnt drink nor smoke so atleast with the saying : 'What you don't know don't hurt', he should maintain that image to my parents.
And I would also hope he never lost his roots, and should he be someone who prays I would be delighted?And not just CLAIM that he prays so much he thinks he's god and all that rubbish la =.=
And of course, for him to be musically inclined or even being a music lover would be the cherry on my cake.

And something really important for me, I really hope you would be able to carry an intellectual conversation with me?
Like I'm done with typical Tamil language thrown at my face and all that drama?
I need a guy who knows how to have a smart convo with me, to be able to discuss about Singapore's issues, to discuss about any current issues or anything under the sun.
But in English, like a respected man who loves his Tamil as much as his English but knows how to talk and when to talk what?
I need that.
Call me a discriminative woman, but I know what I want.
And this is what I want : A balance. Like Yin and Yan.
Opposites attract but they need to balance each other.

And alsooooo...he needs to be educated, having good prospects that I need not worry about should he even want to job-hop.
Be earning enough to keep us happy.
And most importantly someone who knows the importance of savings?!
And for him to have a savings from a decade ago would be a bonus for me only because it helps me be assured of his mentality and his responsibility.
Like really really, all these are crucial and so I would consider all that?

And coming back to the religious side , I would not stand him getting drunk on special days like Thaipusam/Panguni and getting involved in it whilst being drunk?
Like hello?Screw it, I would probably not even want to know someone who does all that.
Like I said, to know what to do when is important for me.
And should he be a participant in these big events I would most definitely be happy for him and pray along for all his prayers to be answered.
See the reason being, my brothers are all like that?
They maybe simply guys who work,club have a gf/wife but when it comes down to God and them they don't fail on it? They don't get DRUNK on these days and be annoying to the people around by dancing/singing drunk?
So I hope that guy would really get to know and realise about my family enough?

And can he also please have a car/car license?I'm done with guys hoping I wouldnt get a car till they get their license and their fucked immaturity.
But it would be ohsocool for him to have a car only because I'm done with a routine life with public transport and would want to be pampered just a little?
And of course I would call on days where I would want to travel in public transport with him only because we shouldnt get too antisocial(if its the right word) and comforted with the luxury of a car?
And strictly no driving, should he want to get drunk outside with his guys . :)
And once in a while to freak out is totally understandable, but say every weekend - NO?
LIKE A BIG FAT NOOOOO!
:)

And and and, did I also mention that, he should trust me and I would trust him with time of getting to know each other and we should try our level best not to disappoint each other when its trust issue?
Yep.

And coming back to my weak point : Singing.
By God's grace should he be able to sing , I WOULD BE OMGOMGOMG EXCITED and be his biggest FAN.
And he can call me anytime of the day to randomly sing a song and that itself would be a surprise.

I want a guy who knows how to plan days/evenings or surprises?
Like a guy who knows how to treat his lady well?
Someone who observes you and like hear you out carefully about places you mention and when weekends comes he calls you and says, 'Okay we're going out tomorrow, pick you up at 7' , and drives down to the place she mentioned days back?
Like omg,how effing sweet would that be?

And despite being a bf, he knows how to have little games with you?
That are harmless but eventually the aim of the game is to basically make you miss him a little more each day?

Ah that said, I need to close my eyes and head to bed thinking of him!
Lol, will continue this tomorrow!
As abrupt as this may be, I love you people! :)

And and and, I'm missing you.

Feeling super super down.
And I don't exactly know why?
Like....omg, there's something eating me up inside.

I know I'm never used to blogging my down side on my blog at all, but screw that, this is after all my blog.
The thing is, I never want to attract too much of attention on the note that I'm down?
But here I am typing all these asking myself why am I feeling off for no reason?

And if there's a reason, is it worth it?

See, the saying, once bitten twice shy never worked on me.
And I think that's more than what I should let on.
But then, by the time I'm bitten thrice I lose myself completely.

Argh!!!
I'm really really losing it.
I need to just get out of everything that is routine for me.

My mum got so mad at me last morning for some dishwashing reasons and started saying that I'm more interested in guys issue than washing the plates.
IM LIKE OMG OMG OMG?
WHERE THE HELL IS THE LINK?
I mean, I'm 22 and if you want your daughter/son to be interested in the same gender then its a problem.
And not that she knows of all the shit I've put myself through to say all that? She doesn't la.
And if she does then she'll know I'm really done. I will not be in a relationship for the next few years and this I'm damn sure of!

Yes I have awesome family to share my sorrows with, but then there comes time then you have search within. Cause its not about sharing to reduce the load, its about absorbing and letting go.
And this is the space where I can.
So bear with me if you're still reading.

Then again, I can't continue.
Fcuk what I'm feeling.

That was rough.... Thing to do now is try and forget it.... I guess I don't quite mean that. It's not a thing you can forget. Maybe not even a thing you want to forget.... Life's like that sometimes... Now and then for no good reason a man can figure out, life will just haul off and knock him flat, slam him agin' the ground so hard it seems like all his insides is busted. But it's not all like that. A lot of it's mighty fine, and you can't afford to waste the good part frettin' about the bad. That makes it all bad.... Sure, I know - sayin' it's one thing and feelin' it's another. But I'll tell you a trick that's sometimes a big help. When you start lookin' around for something good to take the place of the bad, as a general rule you can find it.



And to you : my blog hater(Probably the only one who dislikes my blog), if I even said anything wrongly to offend you then let me know?But don't just ignore?


I'm out.

I think that despite all the drama's that been happening, I am so fortunate to have so many gems around me.
Like each of them have not proved me wrong in anyways.
From lilygem to his bestfriend, to my one and only LOVE babycakes to Pravin and to everyone la basically.
Thank you hor for everything.
You guys are loved so much by me and I appreciate you all so much.

My life's always been circulating with drama I must say.
Like the moment I had a BF it became even more dramatic, even though it ended wahhh the drama won't la.
But screw that, I'm good with everyone around me.

And maybe just maybe, I'm interested in .....
But no much juicy updates for now except that the subject's niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :)
And has been there for me and that's really sweet.
But see, I don't want trust people who can sing anymore!
CANNOT LA.
Lol, but this one sings damn good ah. (Break the jinx thou pls :) )

Okay, but like I said, I'm so sure I'm getting arranged married off in about 5 years.
27 too early uh?
7 years then.
Lol.

And, I am waiting for the Gem's word to come true now, for upon doing so much all I got back in return was shit? And all I await now is your JUDGMENT day.
I swear when that happens I know that its a notsounfair world.


Ok, madly in love with the Manthiram Vechayae song.
And really madly in love with the guy's voice.

So this my plan for this weekend!
24 APRIL - EMCEE JESZ hitting Downtown East and so I'm gona be at his booth WITH him chilling :) Yayness!! (Many photos!)

31st April : GEEVISHA'S 30TH day prayer.

6th May - 7th May : Unwind session with the cousins : CLUBBING

Yeah! My weekend's are gona be awesome, and it would even be more if I saw you in between. :)




And to you my little love : Fret not, as we somehow saw this coming we just didnt prepare ourselves together but deep down we knew there will come this day and so it did pretty early.
But don't be too sad, for everyone else whom you regard as your brothers will share the weight with you and as for me I'll always love you hor. :)
Don't worry!! Just do your best for your studies okay?

But as for you my awesome possom fantastic PAST : Gloat, Smile, Chuckle whatever la, I'm having the last laugh for sure.

Love love.

On a side note : You've got me tripping....